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Project Psychologist
This began as a hospice…

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Children were given an
estimated 5 years of life,

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for those born infected by
their mother\'s bodily fluids.

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Volunteer Administrator HIV AIDS in Central America is
very, very bad. It has pretty high concentrations in

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most of the populations and
Honduras has a higher concentration

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by far than all the other Central American
nations. Project Director What the virus does is

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basically kills their immune
system umm… which means that they

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can… any sickness they\'ll get it.

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So Montaña de Luz at this point
is a home for children with HIV

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where they can get basic nutrition,
clean water, uh… go to school

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and be looked after.

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All authority figures

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are… are referred to as tia
or tio and… or aunt or uncle.

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To date, over 30,000 people
have died of AIDS in Honduras

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and between 70 and a 100,000
people are infected

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in Honduras alone. One can only
estimate that 10 to 15,000

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of those will be children.

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Montaña de Luz is located in a
neighborhood called Nueva esperanza,

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which means new hope.

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We are surrounded by a
sea of sugarcane fields

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uh… on basically all sides.
They burn the sugarcane fields

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every harvest season and that
the entire process takes about

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week and a half, two weeks. The other 10 and
a half or 11 months when the cane is growing

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there is really no work for anyone.

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Marlon\'s home is a

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mud house; they do not have running water.
They have no electricity. His parents both his

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mum and his dad are HIV positive.
They have four children

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and Marlon is the only one
that is HIV positive.

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He was very malnourished. He
had terribly poor hygiene.

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Uh… he had pink eye and had a type of a

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parasite involving worms that would
crawl out of his skin. He had a

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fever of 104 and for a couple of nights, we
were really worried about him wondering,

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you know if he was even gonna make it through and
all of this on top of a compromised immune system.

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At his house basically,

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his life consisted of sitting
in the dirt, playing with rocks

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and that\'s about it.

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A lot of what the children had experienced
before they came here was not just poverty,

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it was not just sickness in general. A
lot of what they experienced was death

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in the way of HIV AIDS, whether it was
a mother, whether it was sibling or

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a father or all of the above and
they are almost from birth, aware

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that the virus within their
blood is the same as death.

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Dilma is the

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oldest child at Montaña de Luz, uh…
she\'s actually 24 years old and…

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but developmentally she\'s on a
seven or eight-year-old level.

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Sometime in early childhood the

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stepfather sexually abused Dilma
and she in turn contracted

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the HIV virus.

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José Santos has a grandma and
grandpa and a great grandma.

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[non-English narration]

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His grandma and his great
grandma are both blind. Uh…

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when José Santos lived with them he actually
walked around with them on the streets and

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was begging for money to… to help them.

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They don\'t have anything, they\'re very poor

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and he doesn\'t care if he doesn\'t eat
all day, if that\'s what it means to

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be with his grandma, that\'s the
most important thing for him.

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2002 is when uh…

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the anti-retrovirals were available here in
Honduras. The children stopped dying, started

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living and with anti-retrovirals
they can live… well nobody knows

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really how long.

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What it is look like for orphanages and

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homes all across the world who are
once barely holding on everyday

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watching children die, till now trying to
figure out what they are going to do with

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children that are growing up. Children
that now are in need of education and…

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and bigger clothes. When
Montaña de Luz was a Hospice,

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the children had no responsibility, they
weren\'t expected to learn, they weren\'t

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expected to prepare for a future,
they weren\'t expected to do just

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normal household chores, washing
their clothes or cleaning their

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rooms making their beds anything.
You don\'t teach dying children how

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to do chores you know invest in
that because its not necessary.

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We now have four-year-olds
and five-year-olds that are

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already washing their pyjamas and that\'s their
job, and in the morning to wash their own pyjamas.

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It\'s something that the tios and the
tias here have really encouraged the

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children saying, you know, \"nobody is going to
do this for you. When you\'re older you need to

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know how to do it and now
it\'s the time to learn.\"

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José Santos

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will go and… and help Doug
feed the pigs or the chickens.

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(inaudible)

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and his wife are really wonderful

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example for him.

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About two weeks ago, José
Santos took the time just

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to say \"I love you too and you are
my dad and you are the only dad

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that I\'ve ever had, and no matter
where you lived you will always be a

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dad to me.\"

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After being at Montaña de Luz there were
notable changes in… in Marlon\'s health,

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the consistency of getting his medicine,
being closely monitored by our

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nurse and having a balanced diet
really takes to everything for Marlon.

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Whether or not we think that the
children see us as role models,

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you know they\'re always watching us
and taking from what we say and do

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and to get them hope is very important.

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Giving them a chance for dreaming.

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We are all piling into the back of
the pickup truck and we were down

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to the cemetery to put flowers
on all the graves, and Molly

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and I, we both just sat there on the slope
of the cemetery looking down at the

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four little grave sites
of the children. They had

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died earlier years and we just kind of
looked at one another and looked at all of

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the healthy children that we were there
with, we actually said, \"you know are so

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grateful that we are never
going to have to (inaudible)

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with us. We never had to put one
of these kids in the ground.

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So, just three

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months later we ended up having to
go down there and dig another hole.

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Many times we had taken him on emergency runs
to the hospital and he was just crying and

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he was actually with one of the tears, and he
said he didn\'t want to go to hospital anymore.

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He didn\'t want to be there anymore
and… and she said to him, \"Deybi, if…

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if you\'re done fighting and if
you want to rest, you can rest.

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You can go to sleep right now
if that\'s what you want\" and he

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just looked at her and then he
just closed his eyes and he died.

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I had never been that close to that before.
To just to be

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able to touch him and hold him, even though
he was already gone and he was still warm.

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He was just a

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light for us.

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He was very revealing how the kids

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acknowledged death at
one their own funerals.

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Some kids didn\'t want to go in
at all, others were little bit

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more sensitive that you know more
of in a dilemma who taught us

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all what grieving looks like.

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She asked everyone to go to the casket
with her to look at him and she would talk

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about him and tell stories about them and
what… what they used to do together,

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and then she would look at me and say,
\"Why… why is he gone? He is my friend.\"

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She kind of went up and just
hugged the casket and just

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cried and cried. And I thought

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why can\'t we cope in that honest(ph).

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I feel like I had (inaudible)

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than that.

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We are just participating in that

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kind of great big movement
from death to life.

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Little one are you tired,

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baby are you tired? Sweet
child if you are tired,

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take your rest, take your
rest, take your rest.

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You don\'t have to fight.

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Child it\'s alright,

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I\'ll hold you through
the night take a rest,

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take your rest, take your rest.

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Because I am proud of you,

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it\'s nothing

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left to prove.

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If nothing else to do

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take your rest, take

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your rest, take a rest.

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Child close your eyes.

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Jesus come beside, now baby I won\'t cry

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take your rest, take your
rest, take your rest.

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A whisper peace to you,

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a whisper love to you,

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your sufferings through take a rest,

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take your rest, take your rest.

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Because I am proud of you,

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it\'s nothing left

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to prove,

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if nothing else to do,

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take your rest, take your rest,

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take your rest oh… take your rest,

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take your rest, take your rest,

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take a rest.

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