Rite of Passage
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Maggie Steber was an only child. Madje Steber was a single parent. When Madje grew old and her dementia didn't allow her to live alone anymore, successful photojournalist Maggie took her from Texas to Miami to take care of her. Over the next few years, Maggie turned her professional eye on her own life, documenting Madje's life in an assisted living facility. The images speak to the pain of loss, the complexities of a mother-daughter relationship, and the fragility of life.
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Main credits
Steber, Maggie (filmmaker)
Steber, Maggie (photographer)
Steber, Maggie (videographer)
Steber, Maggie (interviewee)
Finch, Rob (film producer)
Redfearn, Jennifer (film producer)
Other credits
Photography and video, Maggie Steber.
Distributor subjects
Aging, dementia, women studies, family issues, psychology, sociology, healthcare, grief and recovery, death and dying, depression, photojournalist; Expository; WOKeywords
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Parents put all their hopes and dreams
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and fears into you.
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They love you and
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you’re precious to them.
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Your flesh is theirs.
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They want to spare you
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some hardships,
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but the hardships are the
things that shape you.
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Those are the rights of passage.
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Every summer,
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when I was a little girl
growing up in Texas,
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there were millions of fireflies.
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I would go out and
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collect this whole jar of fireflies.
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I would make this little lantern
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to find my way back home.
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And I would show it to Madje,
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and she would say, “Oh, it’s beautiful,
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but now we have to let them go.”
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We want them to keep lighting everything.
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And we would just watch
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until every one of them
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had flown away.
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Every child starts to understand that
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your parent will die one day.
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So I
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asked her to please wait for me.
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And she promised to wait for me.
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I was her family,
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she was my family.
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My mother was
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very independent.
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That came from
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the fact that she was a divorced woman.
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She was very
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aware of
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how people viewed her
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and thus me.
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She was very much a disciplinarian as well.
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I mean
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very much so.
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We had a very affectionate relationship.
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Of course that changed
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as I became a teenager.
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A hateful, resentful teenager.
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In fact, it did get very bad.
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She sat me down one day and she said,
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“I can\'t do this anymore.
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You either have to stop
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being so mean or
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I am going to sell everything we have
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and put you in boarding school.
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And when you are eighteen
you are on your own.”
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This was not an idle threat.
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Not only would I lose everything,
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but I would lose my mother.
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It scared the doodle out of me.
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And I, I changed overnight.
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She would say,
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you know just because
you born into a family
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doesn\'t mean you have to like them.
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And for a couple of months,
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we didn\'t even talk.
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As she saw me become
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more independent,
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she knew that
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the day was coming when I would leave.
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And I did leave,
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I had to leave.
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I am really not a small town gal.
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So I went to New York
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to seek my fortune and,
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there I found it.
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I never expected to have this
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rather magical,
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incredible life.
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So much richer than I
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ever would have thought
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because of photography.
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All over the world,
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you make friends.
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And they become your
brothers and your sisters.
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You have an opportunity
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to choose your family.
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If I could change anything,
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I probably wouldn\'t have left
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Madje alone so much
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after she retired.
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She became extremely lonely
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and in the loneliness
she went a little mad.
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My mother
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would have been very
happy for me to come and
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just live with her
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and take care of her
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and shut the door to the world.
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And I,
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I couldn’t do that.
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I think that
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really contributed
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to her demise.
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I didn\'t recognize that
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or I didn\'t want to recognize it.
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Was I irresponsible?
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Was I a bad daughter?
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These are all questions I still ask myself.
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Maybe my mother wouldn’t have had dementia?
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She might not have
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fallen into it as quickly.
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Oh, good girl,
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good girl.
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Ok, oh, goodness me.
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OK.
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There, now you’re awake.
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Hello, beautiful.
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My little beautiful woman.
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OK, here we go.
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Gently, gently, gently, gently, gently.
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Around the age of 76,
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she started to suffer
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memory loss and started
to get very confused.
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And then one day
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I got a call from the Austin Police.
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They said your mother called us.
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She was very disoriented.
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All the doors were open.
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There is cat shit everywhere.
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So we have taken her to
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the psych ward at the local hospital
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and you need to come right away.
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And to be honest,
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until Madje sort of lost it,
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I couldn\'t move her.
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It was too hard.
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She wasn\'t ready.
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I wasn\'t ready.
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So this
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psychotic episode
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allowed us to make that move.
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When she realized where she was
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and what I had done, she slapped me
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so hard, it almost knocked me down.
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She was furious
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and said, \"Ah, you are dumping me!”
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Memory is everything.
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Memory is the description of your life.
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Dementia happens in stages.
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Long term memories,
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you can still recall but,
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immediate memories like,
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one minute ago, or
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yesterday, are just gone.
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You can sit with somebody and literally
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answer the same question
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fifty times.
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You, you want to scream.
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It’s very hard
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not to lose your patience.
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But the person literally
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cannot remember that they even
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asked the question.
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And so I spent the next
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three or four days with my mother non-stop.
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Within ten days,
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she just blossomed,
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she was completely different.
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She became kinder
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and more gentle.
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These lines fell from her face
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and she was happy.
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And she had this long hair
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and the women at the place would fix it up.
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She got dressed up everyday
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and people were nice to her.
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And even she started
looking really cool and
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kind of like a movie star almost.
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This was like a reawakening for her.
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At some point in this
voyage that we were on,
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all these windows and doors
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suddenly were flung open
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and all these barriers came down.
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All of these things that I think
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drove us apart
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fell away.
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It’s like all is forgiven.
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All because of this crazy disease.
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So, in a way,
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dementia gave me the
mother I always wanted.
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It was very lovely for a year,
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but then,
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things started happening.
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She was starting to hallucinate.
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Like, one night she woke up in
the middle of the night and
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started waking everyone up
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and saying there’s a fire, there\'s a fire.
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Finally,
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things got a little bit too bad.
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So I had to move her to a locked facility.
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And that was one of the worst
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moments of my life, to think,
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that I was going to lock my mother up.
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Because I know that I wouldn’t want it.
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I would rather be dead.
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And the idea
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that I would have to lock
her up, just, I don’t know,
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I know it’s kind of silly, like,
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OK it’s safer for her, you know.
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But it just kills you, it
kills you, it just kills you.
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I love you.
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You know that I love you?
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Then I found this place
called Midtown Manor.
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And I could relax
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because I knew she was in good care.
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You know you are pretty lady?
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The caregivers were amazing.
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Who is the princess?
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Tell me.
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You are the princess?
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You are my little princess,
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huh?
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Who is the princess, mommy?
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Give me a kiss.
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Give me kiss.
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One,
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two,
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three.
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Heart of my heart,
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I love that melody.
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Heart of my heart,
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brings back those memories.
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When we were kids
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on the corner
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of the street.
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Oh, how we could
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harmonize.
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Heart of my hearts
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meant friends were dearer then.
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Too bad we had to part.
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I know...
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The number one caregiver, Minadora–,
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she became very protective of Madje.
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You are hungry?
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You are hungry?
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Tell yes.
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Yes.
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Tell yes.
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There were times,
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I have to admit,
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where I thought about,
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these woman are with
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my mother more than I am.
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She even probably feels
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closer to them
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than she does to me now.
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Maybe she doesn\'t even know who I am.
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Minadora,
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I’m sure, prolonged Madje’s life.
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She just fell in love with her,
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and I think also
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maybe in a way,
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Madje was her mother, you know.
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She was lucky.
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In the end, she got a
very nice little family.
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And I did too.
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It’s too big
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don’t count
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because it’s turned around her arm twice.
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But see how hard she’s breathing?
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She normally doesn’t breathe that hard.
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On her 89th birthday
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I noticed that her heart was really racing,
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like 180 beats a minute.
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Everybody ask me in the
dining room about you, mommy.
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Yes, huh?
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Yes.
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She want to say something.
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She listen to us.
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I love you so much.
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You are
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very deep in my heart.
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You know that?
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You know that, I know.
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During that week,
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some of the residents
would come up and visit.
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People would bring her flowers.
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It was very sweet.
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There’s a kiss from Beverly.
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I didn’t realize how
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connected people were to her.
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Thank you, Beverly.
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I had to make a decision
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whether to send Madje to the hospital
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or whether to keep her there.
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It’s like having to say well
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you live or you die.
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If I send her to the hospital,
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maybe she will live,
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but then she would have
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all these tubes in her and
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I know she doesn’t want that.
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I have to tell you, this is a,
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a remarkable decision you have to make.
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And,
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because you know the time is here,
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you know, it’s time to die.
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And,
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I don\'t... It changes you.
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You know?
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There’s your life before that
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and,
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and your life after that.
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And,
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I don\'t think you are ever quite the same.
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The thing I worried about
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from the time I was five
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until then,
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was coming true.
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I just kept talking to
her and comforting her
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and telling her how much I loved her.
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I was watching her disappear
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before my eyes.
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You have to tell them they can go.
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That’s the last thing you want to say.
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You want to say, stay.
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Don\'t go yet.
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I just rocked her until
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she took her last breath.
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That is the worst thing
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that I’ll ever live through.
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But I also have to say that it is
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the most incredible thing I
will ever do with my life
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because I was there.
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And I so wanted to be there.
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It was a very beautiful death.
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Being there when
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the person who gave you life,
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is going,
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is,
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I don\'t know what you could,
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I don\'t know how you could
ask for anything greater.
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Dementia was very liberating for her.
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I don\'t know that she
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could ever see who I really was,
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but I suddenly saw who she was.
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Not as Madje my mother,
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but as Madje.
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It was an honor,
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to be her daughter.
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She has to go on
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and I have to stay.
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The fireflies are flying away.
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But, I\'ll have this wonderful lantern
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to find my way to her
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one day.