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(gentle music)
(waves murmuring)

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(engine rumbling)

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(gentle music continues)
(waves murmuring)

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(gentle music continues)
(waves murmuring)

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(waves splashing)

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- I've had a vision of
getting to the finish line.

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I get to claim victory
and it's documented.

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It can be absolutely terrifying.

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But being afraid isn't a
reason or an excuse to fail.

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I don't want to be defeated
by this or by anything.

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(light music)

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It's not well known that
people row across oceans.

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People seem to think that
there's a ship out there with me

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and that I get off my row sharing
boat and eat at the buffet

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and sleep in a bed on a bigger boat

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and then get back in the
boat in the morning and row.

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But that's not true.

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You're on your little boat the whole time

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and all your food and
supplies are on the boat.

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This is what the boat
looks like on laundry day.

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(light dramatic music)

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I've rowed across the
Atlantic Ocean twice.

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Come on, Frank, finish line's approaching.

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The Indian Ocean.

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Hey Helen, between two
asses, how's it going?

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I've circumnavigated Great
Britain in a rowboat.

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- [Person] Angela!

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Look at me (indistinct), woo-hoo!

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(light dramatic music continues)

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(people applauding)

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- [Angela] So tell us, what do
you think about your daughter

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crossing the Atlantic Ocean?

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- I think it's a great thing.

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It's good for the future of
the United States of America.

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- Turn on the pager (indistinct).

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- Glad that she's back with me, you know?

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I was worried about the trip.

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It's a long, hard trip. I
knew she'd come through.

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- And my dad originally worked
in an auto body shop for Ford

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and then he was an auto mechanic for Ford

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and he would work on his own cars,

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and I was a girl, so I
wasn't allowed to do it.

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My God, I think they
thought if I worked on cars

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I'd become gay.

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(Angela laughing)

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- My life before Angela was that I was,

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I was married for 25
years and have two kids.

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He's a fantastic guy,
but he's not a woman.

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And I knew I was gay from
the time I was young.

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We did make it work for a long time,

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but then when my kids were
grown, it was time to go back

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and finish what I needed to do for me.

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I was working as a social worker

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and I had kids in group homes

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and I had a kid that was
in a hospital in Long Beach

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who was in a wheelchair.

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- She was researching

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and wanted to try to get
him out of the hospital.

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And I run a rowing program.

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I teach and coach people
with disabilities how to row.

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- [Debra] So I went down there and-

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- She said she's a trained investigator,

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and before she would bring a kid down,

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that she had to investigate me.

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But I call it stalking.

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- Kind of stalked her and
looked to see if she was okay

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with kids and stuff.

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And then I brought my kid
down to her rowing program.

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- I got her a ring before I rowed.

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I said, "I don't want to date.

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I just wanna do this before I row."

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You know?

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We'd been together ever since.

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We didn't get married until even later

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because it wasn't legal.

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Then we actually went to
New York to get married,

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'cause that was the
first place it was legal.

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So I think it's been about 13 years now.

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- I'm not sure why Angela rows right now.

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She has, I think, she
has to get away from me

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for three months.

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She needs the peace.

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- That's the secret to a happy marriage:

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happy wife, happy life.

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It just says, "Angela's
iPhone becomes your WIFI.

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Are you looking at me? What I'm saying?

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Showing you right here.

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- Ah, she likes to joke around

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and say she's the best Sherpa.

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Which is true, she's really sturdy

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and she's good at lifting
and carrying things.

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But emotionally she plays
a bigger role than that.

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Sorry, what's your big
joke? I'm not fragile.

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- [Debra] I've been out on Angela's boat

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for short periods of time,

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but I get extremely seasick
like even at the dock.

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So it's not my favorite thing to do.

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But Angela loves ocean rowing so much,

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that it's fun for me to watch her.

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She gets so much joy.

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You want a beer or do you want a Coke?

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(people murmuring)

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The first time, I'm like,

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I hope she makes it across the Atlantic.

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'Cause then we'll be done.

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And now 400 rows later, we're still on up.

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She has the dream to do
the solo thing and so...

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I don't think she'll
stop until she does, so.

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I really hope this is successful.

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(switch clicks)

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(lamps buzzing)

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(metal screeches)

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- [Angela] I am rowing from
Los Angeles to Hawaii solo.

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The solo row is kind
of a different animal.

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It's special because
I'll be the oldest woman

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to row across the Pacific solo.

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Only paraplegic to ever
row across an ocean solo.

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I just feel this compulsion,

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almost this connection to the ocean.

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(water sloshing)

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- Ocean rowing is a really rare sport.

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There's less than 2,000
people have rowed any ocean

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and far more have climbed Mount Everest.

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But as far as I'm aware,

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Angela is the only paraplegic
ocean rower out there.

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- The other person who rowed
solo to Hawaii was Roz Savage,

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and she did it in about 100 days.

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So, I'm gonna beat her record.

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- I'm honored.

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I'm honored that she saw
me as a worthy competitor.

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2005 to '06 I rowed across the Atlantic

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and spent 103 days at sea.

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In 2007, I had a failed
attempt on the Pacific.

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I got 10 days out before
a rather reluctant rescue.

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2009, I successfully rowed
from San Francisco to Hawaii,

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which was 99 days.

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At that point, you could
literally count the number

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of solo female ocean rowers
on the fingers of one hand.

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And there were only about
300 people had rowed

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across an ocean in any size of crew.

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I mean, given that these
voyages take months at a time,

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plus years of preparation

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and cost a lot of money, actually.

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It's not surprising

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that there aren't too many
people out there doing this.

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(seagulls screeching)

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- I absolutely want to
get to the other end

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to achieve my goal,

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but also inspire other people

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to set higher goals for themselves.

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To work towards goals, to do more.

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A lot of people always ask
me, why row across an ocean?

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A lot of it is to try to influence people

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not to judge my abilities

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based on what they see in a wheelchair.

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So to advocate for
people with disabilities

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on a global level, to say that
all life has value and worth.

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And to actually say that there
is no such thing as can't,

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because with a little more education,

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or a little more physical training

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and a little more
tenacity, anyone is capable

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of achieving any goal that
they set for themselves.

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When I ended up in the chair,

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I had that same perception
that many people do.

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You're useless. Life's over.

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Never gonna be anything, do anything.

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You're just gonna be stuck in
a chair. That's how we are.

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That's how we roll for the first initial,

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through the transition period anyway.

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Until we discover that...

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disability's not a death sentence.

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And there's life after disability.

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- [Commentator] (indistinct) Scott Brown-

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(crowd cheering)

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(waves raging)

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(Angela grunting)

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(crowd cheering)

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- [Angela] I've been to three Paralympics.

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I have six Guinness Book World records

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for rowing across oceans.

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Here's my swimming and
diving medals and ribbons.

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I have always been an athlete.

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I've done lots of ocean
crossings before, but never solo.

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- What is your next mission?
Are you gonna go to Hawaii?

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- I still have a solo by
myself on my bucket place.

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- A Central Coast woman is
taking on the Pacific Ocean

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this weekend for a trek
that she expects to last

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about 100 days rowing
from Santa Cruz to Hawaii.

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- This is what it looks like.

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You know, when you're an ocean rower,

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you have survival suits, life
jackets, boat stuff, bumpers,

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lifelines, grab bags,
light sticks, flares,

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emergency food, which is all expired.

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I tested most of it about a
month ago and I didn't die, so.

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Smells all right.

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If I can't afford to buy new food,

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I'm gonna have to take that and use it.

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- I never really worried until 2013,

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when she was going to row solo to Hawaii.

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(crowd cheering)

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- [Reporter] In 1993,
Angela had back surgery

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for an injury she received
while on active duty

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in the military.

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The procedure went terribly wrong,

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leaving her with an incomplete spinal cord

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and unable to walk.

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- I'm humbled to just
be here in front of you

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and to be able to do this, to represent,

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represent our nation's
support for our fallen.

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(people cheering)

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- [Onlooker] Go, Angela!

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- It was pretty chilling.

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When I realized how tiny that boat was

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and how big the ocean was.

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(person cheering)

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- [Person] Yeah, don't hit the rocks.

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(people cheering and chattering)

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- The wind started getting bad.

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(wind howling)

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Sadly, we're gonna be departing the boat

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because I've whacked my knee,
might be locked out, so.

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And the weather's bad.

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It's been the winds against me

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the whole way, northwest wind, so.

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Tragically, I wouldn't be able

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to row in tomorrow or the next day.

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I don't know, it is what it is, so.

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I ended up in gale force two winds

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for the first five days,
just getting beat up.

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- And she called me and said
that she had slammed her knee.

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It was just stuck and that's
when she called the Coast Guard

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and they ended up rescuing her.

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(helicopter whirring)

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- [Angela] They flew me
back in the helicopter

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to Santa Barbara.

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- [Debra] I think she was
pretty surprised as I was

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when the solo attempt ended,

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because I had never
really given it a thought

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that she wouldn't make it.

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- The ones who rescued
me from the Coast Guard

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did not know I was a paraplegic.

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I probably could have stayed on the boat

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and eventually would have
been able to carry on.

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You know, I was so fearful of,

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of getting blown back into land,

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and crashing into the rocks,

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or making it even more
dangerous for the Coast Guard

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for a rescue.

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Ocean rowing is like a
combination of two sports;

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bull riding and flat
water rowing. (laughing)

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Yeah, one lasts two minutes,

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and the other last 2,500
miles in three months. So.

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Well flat water racing
only is 2000 meters.

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That's over at five minutes. So.

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So I guess ocean rowing really
isn't like anything else.

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Not really.

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There's a lot of things
about being in a wheelchair

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that aren't easy for anyone.

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There's a higher degree of
difficulty to do most anything.

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It was the, the battle
that I wasn't trained for,

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and never saw coming.

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I played for the women's all
Marine Corps basketball team,

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and I was the center and I
was going up for rebound,

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got the ball, came down and got tripped,

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and came down face first,

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and somebody came down feet
first on my lower back,

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and it ruptured two discs
and tore the sciatic nerve.

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So that's how I got injured.

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When I landed in the
wheelchair permanently,

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my relationship fell apart.

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It was like I didn't sign on to be

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with someone in a wheelchair.

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So they were actually
gone when I got discharged

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from the hospital and then I you know,

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realized that there's a lot of
discrimination and oppression

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that happens because of our differences

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in ability and disability.

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Okay. London Heathrow Airport,

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they didn't bring my
wheelchair to the gate.

00:17:48.480 --> 00:17:51.210
Instead they brought a man with a chair

00:17:51.210 --> 00:17:53.970
with really small wheels
that I couldn't push myself.

00:17:53.970 --> 00:17:55.757
Then I was further humiliated.

00:17:55.757 --> 00:17:59.910
He had to take me to the
toilet. Really sucks.

00:17:59.910 --> 00:18:04.020
Anyway, so he brought me here
and dumped me in this room.

00:18:04.020 --> 00:18:08.253
As you can see I have no wheelchair,

00:18:09.660 --> 00:18:13.260
or no way to, to get to my next flight,

00:18:13.260 --> 00:18:14.823
and he has my ticket.

00:18:16.320 --> 00:18:18.543
I took a walk that way on my knees;

00:18:23.370 --> 00:18:25.497
just to see what was out there.

00:18:34.714 --> 00:18:35.881
Long hallways.

00:18:39.180 --> 00:18:40.713
Just people traveling,

00:18:42.360 --> 00:18:43.413
people walking,

00:18:45.510 --> 00:18:46.803
people being free.

00:18:53.640 --> 00:18:55.980
- [Debra] Ocean row boat
is a relatively safe place

00:18:55.980 --> 00:18:58.083
by comparison to society.

00:18:59.400 --> 00:19:00.920
You're just out there, you're free.

00:19:00.920 --> 00:19:03.540
You can get where you want.

00:19:03.540 --> 00:19:05.440
You don't have to count on your chair.

00:19:12.690 --> 00:19:14.140
- I don't have my fenders on.

00:19:16.020 --> 00:19:18.543
- There. Alright, it's got two slots.

00:19:20.358 --> 00:19:21.191
- Okay. Thank you ma'am.

00:19:21.191 --> 00:19:22.410
- And I'm gonna order a bunch from Amazon

00:19:22.410 --> 00:19:24.540
so they're all at your
house when you come home,

00:19:24.540 --> 00:19:27.753
so you can put them everywhere
so you never lose them again.

00:19:28.590 --> 00:19:32.310
So far we've basically just
charged things on charge cards,

00:19:32.310 --> 00:19:34.350
and then she can't go
on her next ocean row

00:19:34.350 --> 00:19:36.990
until she has paid off the charge cards

00:19:36.990 --> 00:19:41.250
from the last ocean row,
which is why now it's 2020,

00:19:41.250 --> 00:19:42.627
and we're making another ocean row,

00:19:42.627 --> 00:19:45.090
and the last one was 2014.

00:19:45.090 --> 00:19:47.431
And we already have the boat.

00:19:47.431 --> 00:19:49.050
- Well it was quite the
reunion this morning

00:19:49.050 --> 00:19:52.200
on San Diego Bay as Paralympian
and Marine Corps veteran

00:19:52.200 --> 00:19:56.580
Angela Madsen got back the
boat she was forced to abandon.

00:19:56.580 --> 00:19:59.220
Madsen was certain her
boat was gone forever,

00:19:59.220 --> 00:20:02.190
until a local fishing
boat called Old Glory

00:20:02.190 --> 00:20:04.920
Found it and brought it back this morning.

00:20:04.920 --> 00:20:08.490
The irony of the fishing
boat's name wasn't lost on her.

00:20:08.490 --> 00:20:10.213
It's just so awesome that a,

00:20:10.213 --> 00:20:13.067
a boat named Old Glory found it

00:20:13.067 --> 00:20:15.540
on the last day of the
independent holiday.

00:20:15.540 --> 00:20:18.803
- You're getting emotional.
- Yeah. Yeah.

00:20:19.890 --> 00:20:21.660
So the boat was left adrift.

00:20:21.660 --> 00:20:25.110
It was found 80 miles off
the coast of San Diego

00:20:25.110 --> 00:20:26.790
by a fishing boat.

00:20:26.790 --> 00:20:28.170
They didn't have to give it back to me

00:20:28.170 --> 00:20:29.400
under marine salvage law.

00:20:29.400 --> 00:20:32.430
They could have charged me
for it, made me buy it back.

00:20:32.430 --> 00:20:34.876
But they gave it back to me because they

00:20:34.876 --> 00:20:37.383
wanted to see me accomplish my goal.

00:20:39.600 --> 00:20:40.830
- [Soraya] And that's "Row of Life".

00:20:40.830 --> 00:20:43.277
That's the boat you're gonna
use to cross the Pacific.

00:20:43.277 --> 00:20:44.110
- Right.

00:20:44.110 --> 00:20:46.230
It's the same boat that
was rescued that I got back

00:20:46.230 --> 00:20:49.803
that I'm going to once again
attempt my solo row with.

00:20:51.651 --> 00:20:54.234
(bright music)

00:20:59.786 --> 00:21:04.619
I will be the oldest woman to
row across the Pacific solo.

00:21:06.570 --> 00:21:09.213
I'll celebrate my 60th
birthday when I'm at sea.

00:21:11.520 --> 00:21:15.333
- [Debra] The fact that she
make it is not a question to me.

00:21:16.424 --> 00:21:19.383
I don't think she'll stop until she does.

00:21:20.580 --> 00:21:23.700
- Not many people row
an ocean more than once.

00:21:23.700 --> 00:21:26.450
They finish their row and
they walk away and that's it.

00:21:30.227 --> 00:21:31.770
- Long Beach woman who
is a record setting rower

00:21:31.770 --> 00:21:34.110
has set her sights on the Pacific Ocean.

00:21:34.110 --> 00:21:35.760
- From the first time I flew over

00:21:35.760 --> 00:21:37.440
on a Hawaiian Airlines flight

00:21:37.440 --> 00:21:38.910
and was looking down at that water,

00:21:38.910 --> 00:21:41.190
it's like I'm gonna row that,
and I'm gonna do it solo.

00:21:41.190 --> 00:21:44.250
- Filmmaker Soraya Simi
will document her journey.

00:21:44.250 --> 00:21:46.623
- [Soraya] We're figuring
out how to rig her boat

00:21:46.623 --> 00:21:48.870
so that she is an autonomous filmer,

00:21:48.870 --> 00:21:51.723
and simplifies her triggering
cameras on and off.

00:21:59.513 --> 00:22:01.110
- Oops, missed.

00:22:01.110 --> 00:22:02.673
Tried too many steps at once.

00:22:18.810 --> 00:22:21.243
All right, this is the GPS.

00:22:22.380 --> 00:22:23.580
Autopilot.

00:22:23.580 --> 00:22:25.290
Inside this hatch is the water maker.

00:22:25.290 --> 00:22:26.730
Inside here is storage,

00:22:26.730 --> 00:22:29.433
but the autopilot components
are up in here too.

00:22:30.510 --> 00:22:34.460
So, and then this is the bed.

00:22:36.419 --> 00:22:39.153
All of these are just
gonna have food in them.

00:22:45.600 --> 00:22:46.433
- In addition to food,

00:22:46.433 --> 00:22:48.328
you take snack bags with
kind of fun stuff in it

00:22:48.328 --> 00:22:50.430
and then we seal a meal them.

00:22:50.430 --> 00:22:51.510
But before she does that,

00:22:51.510 --> 00:22:53.610
I have little treats I
want to put into them

00:22:53.610 --> 00:22:57.116
like little notes, things
from the grandkids,

00:22:57.116 --> 00:23:01.200
special food stuff that
she doesn't know is here.

00:23:01.200 --> 00:23:03.930
And so when she opens 'em,

00:23:03.930 --> 00:23:06.090
she actually has some joy out there

00:23:06.090 --> 00:23:08.163
of stuff she didn't know she had.

00:23:09.900 --> 00:23:13.443
I write things like row
faster, I'm eating steak,

00:23:14.400 --> 00:23:16.410
don't you wish you had some ice now,

00:23:16.410 --> 00:23:17.710
you know, stuff like that.

00:23:21.750 --> 00:23:24.810
- Sometimes when I'm gone she
gets together with her besties

00:23:24.810 --> 00:23:28.740
and they do a little drinking,
and then she drunk dials me.

00:23:28.740 --> 00:23:30.903
Which is like, sometimes it's annoying,

00:23:30.903 --> 00:23:32.853
but sometimes it's cute.

00:23:41.370 --> 00:23:44.430
Leading up to the row, physical
training is pretty much

00:23:44.430 --> 00:23:46.480
using the concept of two rowing machines.

00:23:52.710 --> 00:23:54.923
Getting out on the water
and actually doing it.

00:24:01.950 --> 00:24:04.530
I have rods in my back so
I don't sleep well anyway,

00:24:04.530 --> 00:24:05.730
I have a lot of pain.

00:24:05.730 --> 00:24:07.770
So when I get up in
the middle of the night

00:24:07.770 --> 00:24:10.920
I do workouts on my rowing machine.

00:24:10.920 --> 00:24:13.353
So I get used to two
hours on, two hours off.

00:24:16.300 --> 00:24:18.897
You have a big storm,
this is what you deploy.

00:24:20.383 --> 00:24:23.873
You put out your parachute anchor.

00:24:23.873 --> 00:24:28.740
So these are our dark
lines, red parachute flare.

00:24:28.740 --> 00:24:30.960
Deb makes me take all this other stuff,

00:24:30.960 --> 00:24:34.050
and row all this extra
weight just in case.

00:24:34.050 --> 00:24:35.790
You know what Deb wants, she gets.

00:24:35.790 --> 00:24:37.410
- She just needs to know that she doesn't

00:24:37.410 --> 00:24:39.210
need anybody else to do it.

00:24:39.210 --> 00:24:40.710
I probably have more faith in the fact

00:24:40.710 --> 00:24:42.363
that she can do it than she does.

00:24:43.350 --> 00:24:44.430
- Getting blown off course,

00:24:44.430 --> 00:24:47.700
it'll probably be close to 2,700 meters.

00:24:47.700 --> 00:24:51.150
The amount of miles you make
per day is about 50 to 70.

00:24:51.150 --> 00:24:54.533
I'll be rowing 12 hours out
of every 24 hour period.

00:24:55.512 --> 00:24:58.262
(dramatic music)

00:25:06.900 --> 00:25:09.150
when I get ready to row,
I need (indistinct).

00:25:10.014 --> 00:25:13.140
It's extremely important
to have offshore winds

00:25:13.140 --> 00:25:16.223
to not fight the winds off the coast.

00:25:19.860 --> 00:25:21.910
As soon as I get that good weather to go.

00:25:32.220 --> 00:25:34.650
- Well the weather's been
pretty nice here in Bakersfield

00:25:34.650 --> 00:25:37.080
but what's happening down
here at Marina Del Rey?

00:25:37.080 --> 00:25:38.943
Well you'll remember Angela Madsen,

00:25:38.943 --> 00:25:40.590
this is several years ago.

00:25:40.590 --> 00:25:45.450
Here she is. She is a
grandmother, she's an ex-Marine.

00:25:45.450 --> 00:25:46.530
Thank you for your service.

00:25:46.530 --> 00:25:49.245
And she is paralyzed from the waist down,

00:25:49.245 --> 00:25:50.580
but she hasn't given up.

00:25:50.580 --> 00:25:52.440
So we are gonna be monitoring the weather

00:25:52.440 --> 00:25:54.630
the whole way through for Angela.

00:25:54.630 --> 00:25:56.250
I'm in contact with her,

00:25:56.250 --> 00:25:59.133
and hopefully she'll
get there right on time.

00:26:05.370 --> 00:26:07.470
- The chief of spinal cord injury told me

00:26:07.470 --> 00:26:09.963
my physical condition was
a waste of human life.

00:26:10.890 --> 00:26:12.063
And that pissed me off.

00:26:15.240 --> 00:26:18.617
And because I was pissed, I took action.

00:26:26.876 --> 00:26:28.376
I wanna get there.

00:26:43.451 --> 00:26:46.246
(gentle music)

00:26:46.246 --> 00:26:48.329
Okay Deb, it's all yours.

00:27:07.878 --> 00:27:12.295
- [Debra] Look, we're getting
here right at midnight.

00:27:14.846 --> 00:27:17.394
- Yeah, but we're not
launching at midnight.

00:27:17.394 --> 00:27:19.727
- [Debra] But we don't care.

00:27:48.191 --> 00:27:50.375
Should I tickle you?

00:27:50.375 --> 00:27:52.520
- Being a contortionist.

00:27:52.520 --> 00:27:56.992
- Just think of how much easier
it'll be when you get there.

00:27:56.992 --> 00:28:01.893
- It's really hard doing
this when the boat's moving.

00:28:01.893 --> 00:28:04.425
- Don't lose your passport.

00:28:04.425 --> 00:28:07.455
- Well that's why I was
getting all this stuff in.

00:28:07.455 --> 00:28:09.365
- [Debra] Is it the blue handled oars

00:28:09.365 --> 00:28:10.834
or the light blue handled oars?

00:28:10.834 --> 00:28:12.969
- [Angela] Light blue.

00:28:12.969 --> 00:28:16.386
(gentle music continues)

00:28:45.464 --> 00:28:48.797
(ringing)
Cowbells work.

00:28:55.613 --> 00:28:57.363
- [Debra] Bon voyage!

00:28:58.364 --> 00:29:00.947
- I gotta turn on my nav light.

00:29:03.226 --> 00:29:06.059
- 12:46 is the...
- Official time.

00:29:11.117 --> 00:29:14.284
See you on the other side of the pond!

00:29:27.870 --> 00:29:30.620
(waves crashing)

00:29:37.597 --> 00:29:40.680
(boat whistle blows)

00:30:14.307 --> 00:30:18.060
What I have now is 15
knot, 12-15 knot headwinds,

00:30:18.060 --> 00:30:21.210
with current against me.

00:30:21.210 --> 00:30:25.200
So I was only able to go,
to row about four knots.

00:30:25.200 --> 00:30:28.413
I haven't slept since,
you know, since I started.

00:30:31.922 --> 00:30:32.755
So my tours are done.

00:30:32.755 --> 00:30:34.560
I installed cam cleats
for the rudder lines,

00:30:34.560 --> 00:30:36.390
'cause they kept dumping off,

00:30:36.390 --> 00:30:39.993
and you know, maybe I'm gonna
take two hours to sleep.

00:30:42.767 --> 00:30:43.600
I need it.

00:30:45.055 --> 00:30:48.990
Man, I'm tired. I have blisters already.

00:30:48.990 --> 00:30:50.373
No bum sores yet,

00:30:52.657 --> 00:30:55.113
but I'm doing good all in all for day two.

00:30:56.715 --> 00:30:59.298
(gentle music)

00:31:02.709 --> 00:31:05.876
(typewriter clacking)

00:31:20.935 --> 00:31:24.018
(notifications buzz)

00:31:35.345 --> 00:31:37.928
(wind howling)

00:31:49.498 --> 00:31:53.986
Going on out there, 'cause
it's all going on in here.

00:31:53.986 --> 00:31:55.738
We're gonna do a little, that's my AIS

00:31:55.738 --> 00:32:00.738
which I can't figure out how
to work, or it's not working.

00:32:01.260 --> 00:32:04.140
Nocturnal habits of the ocean rower.

00:32:04.140 --> 00:32:08.223
Finish rowing and raid the snack pack.

00:32:14.580 --> 00:32:15.533
Light on there.

00:32:20.870 --> 00:32:23.497
So, and there we are.

00:32:25.800 --> 00:32:30.800
At night in the cabin all
tucked into bed after rowing.

00:32:36.522 --> 00:32:41.522
look forward to two hours and
then we should be back at it.

00:32:45.557 --> 00:32:48.307
(waves crashing)

00:32:59.389 --> 00:33:02.472
(boat whistle blows)

00:33:07.797 --> 00:33:12.330
You can fail at any time in ocean, right?

00:33:12.330 --> 00:33:16.383
Something can happen even the last day.

00:33:17.970 --> 00:33:19.200
- I'd say two kinds of dangers.

00:33:19.200 --> 00:33:20.520
The ones that will kill you and the ones

00:33:20.520 --> 00:33:22.653
that will just give you a really bad time.

00:33:23.640 --> 00:33:28.640
Cap sizes, storms, being
hit by container ships.

00:33:30.212 --> 00:33:33.750
And the one golden rule of ocean rowing

00:33:33.750 --> 00:33:36.333
is do not get separated from your boat.

00:33:37.762 --> 00:33:42.762
(dramatic music)
(typewriter clacking)

00:33:56.310 --> 00:34:00.300
Parachute anchor is like a parachute,

00:34:00.300 --> 00:34:01.860
and as it opens out,

00:34:01.860 --> 00:34:05.910
it grabs hold of a ton of sea water

00:34:05.910 --> 00:34:09.480
and stops you from being
blown too far backwards.

00:34:09.480 --> 00:34:11.460
So you want to put out the sea anchor,

00:34:11.460 --> 00:34:14.220
which turns your bows into the waves.

00:34:14.220 --> 00:34:17.640
So the waves are then rolling
down the side to the boat

00:34:17.640 --> 00:34:20.073
instead of broad siding
you and capsizing you.

00:34:23.010 --> 00:34:24.510
- [Weather Man] Well if you're going west,

00:34:24.510 --> 00:34:27.990
and the winds are pushing
you south toward the equator,

00:34:27.990 --> 00:34:29.880
well that makes it just that much harder

00:34:29.880 --> 00:34:32.586
to get to your ultimate destination.

00:34:32.586 --> 00:34:35.336
(waves crashing)

00:34:37.929 --> 00:34:38.914
- All day.

00:34:38.914 --> 00:34:41.777
It's like a hell of a deal.

00:34:41.777 --> 00:34:43.854
I dunno where the hell it came from,

00:34:43.854 --> 00:34:46.650
but I've decided to put out
the parachute anchor now

00:34:46.650 --> 00:34:50.220
and just ride it out at night
on this, the parachute anchor,

00:34:50.220 --> 00:34:52.503
because it's just not safe to row in it.

00:34:54.203 --> 00:34:57.360
So how many miles I've needed it already,

00:34:57.360 --> 00:35:00.453
but it's what it is, you know.

00:35:01.740 --> 00:35:03.550
Safety, safety, safety.

00:35:10.020 --> 00:35:12.510
- It's day 13 for Angela Madsen.

00:35:12.510 --> 00:35:15.240
And of course you know she's
been having a really tough time

00:35:15.240 --> 00:35:16.810
with these strong winds.

00:35:16.810 --> 00:35:19.440
A 35, 45 mile per hour winds,

00:35:19.440 --> 00:35:21.480
having a hard time getting to the west.

00:35:21.480 --> 00:35:23.550
She's been blown down to the south,

00:35:23.550 --> 00:35:26.580
now she's four miles to the
east of Guadalupe Island.

00:35:26.580 --> 00:35:29.070
But she's going to kind
of hang out there in the,

00:35:29.070 --> 00:35:31.233
in the wake of the island.

00:35:36.395 --> 00:35:39.478
(notifications buzz)

00:35:48.180 --> 00:35:51.480
- The coast of California
is notoriously difficult

00:35:51.480 --> 00:35:52.980
to get away from.

00:35:52.980 --> 00:35:55.163
Your weatherman can really only give you

00:35:55.163 --> 00:35:58.530
a reliable forecast for about seven days.

00:35:58.530 --> 00:36:01.140
But then after those first seven days,

00:36:01.140 --> 00:36:02.730
all bets are off really.

00:36:02.730 --> 00:36:03.780
Bad weather hits,

00:36:03.780 --> 00:36:07.383
and that's when things
are likely to go sideways.

00:36:16.380 --> 00:36:19.173
- Amazingly, when I stop
rowing, I'm drifting back,

00:36:20.430 --> 00:36:22.770
back in as fast as I'm able to row out.

00:36:22.770 --> 00:36:27.333
So it's a slow grind. Not easy.

00:36:35.790 --> 00:36:37.683
- She is too far south,

00:36:38.640 --> 00:36:42.750
and she's getting into
weather that's causing her

00:36:42.750 --> 00:36:47.218
not to be able to, is
spinning her like little

00:36:47.218 --> 00:36:52.218
curly cues on the, on
the, on the tracking.

00:37:06.064 --> 00:37:08.814
(waves crashing)

00:37:15.819 --> 00:37:20.819
- Boat's gone over twice
already. It's pretty scary.

00:37:21.110 --> 00:37:25.582
I had to go out on the, get
the, a bit of float line

00:37:25.582 --> 00:37:26.797
and stuff out, and stuff it in there

00:37:26.797 --> 00:37:29.586
and stuff the rowing seat away.

00:37:29.586 --> 00:37:34.169
Got everything buttoned down,
nailed down, even myself.

00:37:35.883 --> 00:37:37.831
I'm strapped in.

00:37:37.831 --> 00:37:41.831
All the hatches closed,
and it's so hot in here.

00:37:43.360 --> 00:37:46.470
- Okay, so I've talked
to a few other rowers

00:37:46.470 --> 00:37:48.420
that have done that crossing,

00:37:48.420 --> 00:37:50.060
and they were unanimous,

00:37:50.060 --> 00:37:52.260
so this you can share or not with her,

00:37:52.260 --> 00:37:55.950
but we don't believe that
she can make it this year.

00:37:55.950 --> 00:37:57.690
Because like yesterday she wanted

00:37:57.690 --> 00:38:00.420
to get off Guadalupe Island and go west,

00:38:00.420 --> 00:38:03.150
and as soon as she turned
the point she said,

00:38:03.150 --> 00:38:06.000
well the, the wind is against
me, I can't make any progress.

00:38:06.000 --> 00:38:09.450
So she went back up a little
bit, hiding behind the islands,

00:38:09.450 --> 00:38:11.953
maybe waiting a few hours and try again.

00:38:11.953 --> 00:38:15.090
One woman, you know that can't use her leg

00:38:15.090 --> 00:38:19.612
to the full strength is,
is just gonna be very hard.

00:38:19.612 --> 00:38:22.362
(waves crashing)

00:38:42.840 --> 00:38:44.702
- [Angela] After my initial injury,

00:38:44.702 --> 00:38:48.330
I got discharged from the Marine Corps

00:38:48.330 --> 00:38:50.253
'cause I could no longer do my job.

00:38:52.170 --> 00:38:56.583
And 13 years of degeneration
later I had to have surgery.

00:38:57.930 --> 00:38:59.370
It was scheduled for UCI,

00:38:59.370 --> 00:39:04.200
but when they found out it was
service related line of duty,

00:39:04.200 --> 00:39:05.703
my insurance canceled.

00:39:08.400 --> 00:39:11.790
So I went to the VA, which
is the veteran's hospital,

00:39:11.790 --> 00:39:13.140
had my surgery there,

00:39:13.140 --> 00:39:15.363
and everything went wrong in the surgery.

00:39:22.230 --> 00:39:25.320
Doctors took out the wrong disc first,

00:39:25.320 --> 00:39:29.070
put the bone graft in wrong,
put the hardware in wrong.

00:39:29.070 --> 00:39:31.170
I had to rip it all out.

00:39:31.170 --> 00:39:32.820
Drilled a hole in my spinal cord,

00:39:34.854 --> 00:39:38.757
it had a massive spinal
fluid leak for like 12 days.

00:39:42.342 --> 00:39:44.490
It was a three month hospitalization,

00:39:44.490 --> 00:39:46.530
that should have been a
two week hospitalization.

00:39:46.530 --> 00:39:51.183
So I lost my job, my
house, I lost everything.

00:40:01.517 --> 00:40:04.080
I went home to a
sheriff's eviction notice.

00:40:04.080 --> 00:40:06.000
So I had overnight to get my stuff out

00:40:06.000 --> 00:40:09.350
before the sheriff came
the morning to evict me.

00:40:10.650 --> 00:40:14.583
So brand new to a wheelchair,
and I hit the streets.

00:40:16.530 --> 00:40:19.260
I tried couch surfing with friends,

00:40:19.260 --> 00:40:20.790
didn't work out 'cause of the chair.

00:40:20.790 --> 00:40:22.140
Places weren't accessible.

00:40:22.140 --> 00:40:24.183
People had animals. I had allergies.

00:40:25.830 --> 00:40:28.803
Joined the homeless population,

00:40:29.820 --> 00:40:33.000
and I slept on the bus
bench at Harbor and Katella

00:40:33.000 --> 00:40:35.073
by Disneyland, happiest place on earth.

00:40:37.366 --> 00:40:39.949
(gentle music)

00:40:42.540 --> 00:40:46.323
And yeah, that was my
new normal in my life,

00:40:47.520 --> 00:40:49.763
and turned like totally for the worst.

00:40:56.872 --> 00:40:58.680
It's about 12:39.

00:40:58.680 --> 00:41:00.788
Winds were supposed to die at midnight,

00:41:00.788 --> 00:41:03.205
so I was ready to go, but um,

00:41:06.000 --> 00:41:09.803
they didn't die down.
Waves didn't die down.

00:41:09.803 --> 00:41:11.636
Yeah, that's not good.

00:41:16.803 --> 00:41:19.970
I'm not doing too well in these waves.

00:41:21.949 --> 00:41:25.032
I don't know if I'm going to make it.

00:41:41.430 --> 00:41:43.580
- You really are
intensely alone out there.

00:41:45.810 --> 00:41:47.825
You know that if something goes wrong,

00:41:47.825 --> 00:41:50.575
it could take a really long
time to get in your rescue.

00:41:53.760 --> 00:41:58.020
Helicopters can only come out
about 100 miles from shore.

00:41:58.020 --> 00:41:59.640
After that planes can get to you,

00:41:59.640 --> 00:42:01.566
but you can't get rescued into a plane

00:42:01.566 --> 00:42:03.806
'cause they can't hover.

00:42:03.806 --> 00:42:06.180
So once you are more
than 100 miles off shore,

00:42:06.180 --> 00:42:08.313
it's really down to a ship rescue.

00:42:19.367 --> 00:42:22.950
(flag blowing in the wind)

00:42:29.286 --> 00:42:34.286
- After my injury, I was
angry. I was blaming people.

00:42:34.526 --> 00:42:37.937
I was also at that low
where it takes more courage

00:42:39.119 --> 00:42:41.610
to decide to live than it does to actually

00:42:41.610 --> 00:42:43.110
take the easy way out and kill yourself.

00:42:43.110 --> 00:42:45.330
So I was suicidal.

00:42:45.330 --> 00:42:49.260
And then just at that lowest
point that you can actually go

00:42:49.260 --> 00:42:51.960
where it's like, okay,
I'm not gonna survive

00:42:51.960 --> 00:42:54.213
and have a future if I keep this up.

00:42:55.400 --> 00:42:57.210
So I had to try to learn how to become

00:42:57.210 --> 00:42:58.760
more positive about everything.

00:42:59.610 --> 00:43:01.860
Blaming people and just focusing on

00:43:01.860 --> 00:43:04.560
all the negative and on the
anger was holding me back.

00:43:07.890 --> 00:43:11.340
I learned how to stop
being adrift and angry,

00:43:11.340 --> 00:43:12.740
and learned how to navigate.

00:43:26.100 --> 00:43:29.263
- [Debra] I think she has
to prove to herself she can.

00:43:29.263 --> 00:43:32.633
I don't think she could live
with herself if she couldn't.

00:43:34.063 --> 00:43:36.646
(bright music)

00:43:57.270 --> 00:43:59.760
- Someone once told me that I was born

00:43:59.760 --> 00:44:02.220
with a resilient trait and it's like, no,

00:44:02.220 --> 00:44:03.840
I've just had more opportunity

00:44:03.840 --> 00:44:05.540
to practice than other people did.

00:44:07.500 --> 00:44:12.273
It's a capability that we
share as humans, to be able.

00:44:16.830 --> 00:44:19.913
(notifications buzz)

00:44:32.760 --> 00:44:34.933
Minutes from the cabin
or from the two hours

00:44:34.933 --> 00:44:37.312
of rowing into the cabin.

00:44:37.312 --> 00:44:41.218
And first thing I see
everything cold and wet.

00:44:41.218 --> 00:44:45.082
Maybe I'll call somebody tonight too just,

00:44:45.082 --> 00:44:50.082
'cause I'm tired and I feel
like it'll make me feel better.

00:44:50.454 --> 00:44:53.371
Bit random. No, I'll figure it out.

00:44:55.848 --> 00:45:00.848
But I'm gonna eat my sandwich
and I got my alarm set.

00:45:01.410 --> 00:45:05.580
I got one minute and 53 seconds,

00:45:05.580 --> 00:45:10.576
53 minutes and 19 seconds
left of my off time, so.

00:45:10.576 --> 00:45:12.576
Make every minute count.

00:45:15.180 --> 00:45:17.700
so breaky, breakfast,
this is what we have.

00:45:17.700 --> 00:45:19.113
We have apple brown Betty,

00:45:20.100 --> 00:45:24.720
and three berry cobbler,
which I use hot water to make.

00:45:24.720 --> 00:45:27.223
I only cook once a day,
so we cook the water

00:45:27.223 --> 00:45:30.630
and put it in this Stanley Thermos here.

00:45:30.630 --> 00:45:33.930
And then in the morning
I can just use that to,

00:45:33.930 --> 00:45:34.763
to make my meals.

00:45:34.763 --> 00:45:37.833
I ran out of coffee so I
don't need any water for that.

00:45:39.180 --> 00:45:40.013
That's sound here.

00:45:40.013 --> 00:45:43.140
That humming, that's the water maker valve

00:45:43.140 --> 00:45:44.460
that comes out through here.

00:45:44.460 --> 00:45:47.070
And then fill up all
our cans of water here.

00:45:47.070 --> 00:45:49.006
So you can just push
the little button there,

00:45:49.006 --> 00:45:51.756
and it tells us how much
power we have in each battery.

00:45:52.890 --> 00:45:55.710
And there's our wonderful AIS.

00:45:55.710 --> 00:45:58.904
You see we have AIS, we
have no ships in the area,

00:45:58.904 --> 00:46:01.593
so that's good.

00:46:05.100 --> 00:46:08.043
Sometimes it's nice to
take the shirt off and row.

00:46:09.090 --> 00:46:12.120
Usually I get rashed where my scars are

00:46:12.120 --> 00:46:15.802
from my breast surgery from here to here.

00:46:15.802 --> 00:46:20.516
So 2002 I had breast cancer
and I lost both my breasts.

00:46:20.516 --> 00:46:25.516
So usually I get rashed.

00:46:26.904 --> 00:46:29.487
(gentle music)

00:46:30.807 --> 00:46:33.974
(typewriter clacking)

00:47:04.407 --> 00:47:08.067
- In our med kit came this handy
dandy little scissor thing.

00:47:08.067 --> 00:47:10.597
I'm just calling it
the rower scissor 2000,

00:47:10.597 --> 00:47:14.518
the most interesting
little rescue rowing tool,

00:47:14.518 --> 00:47:19.518
which I've been using to
cut callouses off my hand,

00:47:19.653 --> 00:47:22.353
cut them open and get to
the blisters underneath.

00:47:23.769 --> 00:47:26.040
If they ever get infected
so you can get something

00:47:26.040 --> 00:47:27.622
in there to heal them.

00:47:27.622 --> 00:47:31.511
So I've been using these scissors.

00:47:31.511 --> 00:47:36.511
(waves crashing)
(gentle music)

00:47:51.366 --> 00:47:54.530
- [Roz] This desire for
greater self-awareness,

00:47:54.530 --> 00:47:55.780
self-knowledge.

00:48:01.166 --> 00:48:03.660
To find out who I really was when I wasn't

00:48:03.660 --> 00:48:06.063
interacting with somebody else,

00:48:08.430 --> 00:48:12.573
when I wasn't somebody's
friend, wife, daughter, sister.

00:48:17.210 --> 00:48:20.543
To find out who I am when I'm on my own.

00:48:39.791 --> 00:48:42.041
- [Angela] Fucking awesome.

00:49:09.206 --> 00:49:10.883
- [Debra] And there's her fish friends.

00:49:18.570 --> 00:49:20.220
So see, she's so happy.
- She's so happy.

00:49:20.220 --> 00:49:21.540
- [Debra] I mean, and
that's the whole thing.

00:49:21.540 --> 00:49:24.857
It's like how can you
not be supportive? Right?

00:50:05.822 --> 00:50:08.958
- Hey, it's me, Angela, I
guess I called too late.

00:50:08.958 --> 00:50:10.830
It's (indistinct) and everything.

00:50:10.830 --> 00:50:14.460
Anyway, I'm on the boat, doing good.

00:50:14.460 --> 00:50:15.594
I'm on my two hours off,

00:50:15.594 --> 00:50:17.789
so I just took a break to call you guys.

00:50:17.789 --> 00:50:19.372
Love you guys, bye.

00:50:22.718 --> 00:50:24.620
Hey, this is Angela
calling from Row of Life

00:50:24.620 --> 00:50:26.373
in the Pacific Ocean.

00:50:27.842 --> 00:50:30.630
What's up? I don't know.

00:50:30.630 --> 00:50:32.910
Listen, I'll leave the phone on

00:50:32.910 --> 00:50:35.236
for a little while if
you want to try back.

00:50:35.236 --> 00:50:37.380
I'm gonna row until the
sun goes down and then

00:50:37.380 --> 00:50:40.136
put out my parachute anchor. So.

00:50:40.136 --> 00:50:42.740
All right my dear. Goodnight.

00:50:46.408 --> 00:50:50.048
Good morning, honey. It's
me, calling from the ocean.

00:50:50.048 --> 00:50:54.965
Just finished my breakfast,
and getting ready to go rowing.

00:50:56.740 --> 00:50:57.734
Yeah.

00:50:57.734 --> 00:51:01.052
Just called to tell you I love you.

00:51:01.052 --> 00:51:03.432
All right, I will text with you later.

00:51:03.432 --> 00:51:04.426
Love ya. Bye.

00:51:04.426 --> 00:51:07.009
(gentle music)

00:51:28.534 --> 00:51:30.578
- [Debra] There's definitely
times that I miss Angela

00:51:30.578 --> 00:51:31.995
while she's gone.

00:51:33.572 --> 00:51:38.322
I mean there's things I think
of that I want to tell her.

00:51:56.787 --> 00:51:59.343
She got to the dock, I wouldn't kiss her,

00:52:00.870 --> 00:52:03.603
because I didn't want to offend anybody.

00:52:07.050 --> 00:52:08.490
She was very upset about that.

00:52:08.490 --> 00:52:11.310
So she told me she didn't
care when she got to the dock

00:52:11.310 --> 00:52:14.286
this time she was gonna kiss
me whether I liked it or not.

00:52:14.286 --> 00:52:16.743
And I mean, you know, she was
gonna make a deal out of it.

00:52:22.294 --> 00:52:24.127
I miss her every time.

00:52:33.578 --> 00:52:36.078
(GPS beeping)

00:52:43.447 --> 00:52:46.530
(notifications buzz)

00:53:32.966 --> 00:53:35.716
(waves crashing)

00:53:43.661 --> 00:53:46.828
(typewriter clacking)

00:54:10.806 --> 00:54:13.473
(phone ringing)

00:54:15.806 --> 00:54:17.904
- [Coast Guard] Coast Guard
Packer, command center,

00:54:17.904 --> 00:54:18.737
Chief Templeton.

00:54:18.737 --> 00:54:21.489
- Hi, can you hear me okay?
- Yes.

00:54:21.489 --> 00:54:26.134
- Hi, my name's Soraya. I
was told to call you guys.

00:54:26.134 --> 00:54:30.750
So there's a woman, her
name's Angela Madsen.

00:54:30.750 --> 00:54:34.759
She's currently rowing from
Los Angeles to Hawaii solo.

00:54:34.759 --> 00:54:37.980
We haven't heard from her in 24 hours,

00:54:37.980 --> 00:54:39.210
and it's pretty unusual

00:54:39.210 --> 00:54:41.790
that she wouldn't write to us at least.

00:54:41.790 --> 00:54:43.920
So we're just a little bit concerned.

00:54:43.920 --> 00:54:46.080
And I just wanted to give you her location

00:54:46.080 --> 00:54:49.080
so we could just know our
options if we did need

00:54:49.080 --> 00:54:53.703
to send out a rescue, what
that, what that entails.

00:54:56.790 --> 00:54:59.400
- [Coast Guard] Okay. And what
is the last known position?

00:54:59.400 --> 00:55:04.400
- [Soraya] Latitude
22.41, longitude 134.89.

00:55:05.734 --> 00:55:07.234
That was at 10:05.

00:55:08.182 --> 00:55:09.870
- [Coast Guard] Okay,
so about 12 minutes ago?

00:55:09.870 --> 00:55:10.883
- Correct.
- Okay.

00:55:15.364 --> 00:55:19.920
And when was the last time
that you spoke to her?

00:55:19.920 --> 00:55:21.687
- Almost exactly 24 hours ago.

00:55:21.687 --> 00:55:24.390
She posted at 9:00 PM last night

00:55:24.390 --> 00:55:26.670
that she was gonna have a swim day today.

00:55:26.670 --> 00:55:28.770
So we're a little bit worried
that if she went in the water,

00:55:28.770 --> 00:55:30.953
she might have been
separated from her boat.

00:55:34.029 --> 00:55:38.362
This is so unusual for her
not to respond this long.

00:55:42.918 --> 00:55:46.001
(notifications buzz)

00:55:57.420 --> 00:56:00.480
Yeah, so she waited until the
morning to go in the water

00:56:00.480 --> 00:56:04.680
and the boat hit zero at one point,

00:56:04.680 --> 00:56:06.690
but now it's just been going a steady,

00:56:06.690 --> 00:56:09.335
like exactly the same speed.

00:56:09.335 --> 00:56:12.570
1.08, 1.08, 1.08. This is fucking scary.

00:56:12.570 --> 00:56:14.760
Like she just stopped going west,

00:56:14.760 --> 00:56:17.163
and the boat's just drifting south now.

00:56:27.870 --> 00:56:30.180
- [Coast Guard] So looking at
the position, you are correct,

00:56:30.180 --> 00:56:33.690
she's out there in the middle of nowhere,

00:56:33.690 --> 00:56:35.307
but actually based on that position,

00:56:35.307 --> 00:56:40.307
she is under our jurisdiction
of our unit out in Hawaii.

00:56:42.979 --> 00:56:45.917
So what I'm gonna do is just
place you on a brief hold

00:56:45.917 --> 00:56:47.445
and I'm gonna get you in touch with them

00:56:47.445 --> 00:56:49.994
and they'll be able to assist you.

00:56:49.994 --> 00:56:51.150
- Okay, thank you.

00:56:51.150 --> 00:56:55.020
- We continue now with the
three time Paralympian.

00:56:55.020 --> 00:56:57.510
- You know, I talked to the
Coast guard out in Hawaii

00:56:57.510 --> 00:56:59.763
that oversees that part of the Pacific.

00:57:00.660 --> 00:57:03.210
That's 14 million square miles.

00:57:03.210 --> 00:57:06.570
It's almost impossible to find
one 20 foot boat out there,

00:57:06.570 --> 00:57:08.813
even with the electronics
she had, and to get to it.

00:57:16.860 --> 00:57:18.956
- Hey Deb, I haven't heard anything yet,

00:57:18.956 --> 00:57:23.070
but it looks like I'm gonna be
at your house in 30 minutes,

00:57:23.070 --> 00:57:24.483
so I'll just see you then.

00:57:30.507 --> 00:57:33.194
- [Coast Guard] Hello,
this is (indistinct).

00:57:33.194 --> 00:57:34.027
- [Soraya] Hi.

00:57:34.027 --> 00:57:34.860
- [Coast Guard] I was just
calling to let you know,

00:57:34.860 --> 00:57:37.005
we have our aircraft on scene right now,

00:57:37.005 --> 00:57:39.707
we're having difficulties
communicating with them,

00:57:39.707 --> 00:57:42.213
and then we also have the,

00:57:42.213 --> 00:57:45.510
it's called AMVER vessels,
which are motor vessels.

00:57:45.510 --> 00:57:47.515
And they're there right
now to try to locate,

00:57:47.515 --> 00:57:49.432
locate the vessel.

00:57:49.432 --> 00:57:51.046
- [Soraya] So the aircraft,
you don't know if they,

00:57:51.046 --> 00:57:53.186
they've spotted the vessel or not?

00:57:53.186 --> 00:57:54.833
- No, they keep calling.

00:57:54.833 --> 00:57:57.450
I'm not sure if it's like
stuck in the satellites,

00:57:57.450 --> 00:57:58.283
or how it's working,

00:57:58.283 --> 00:57:59.700
but we keep getting a
bunch of calls from them,

00:57:59.700 --> 00:58:01.323
like they're trying to call us.

00:58:01.323 --> 00:58:05.299
So I assume they're trying
to relay the information

00:58:05.299 --> 00:58:07.030
that they have.

00:58:07.030 --> 00:58:10.171
But right now, it's pretty
far remote out there that it's

00:58:10.171 --> 00:58:12.677
kind of a hard spot for
communication purposes.

00:58:12.677 --> 00:58:13.650
- Right?

00:58:13.650 --> 00:58:15.099
- [Soraya] Well then that
might be the same issue

00:58:15.099 --> 00:58:16.410
she's having.

00:58:16.410 --> 00:58:17.640
- Yeah, that's what we're thinking,

00:58:17.640 --> 00:58:19.901
because we're tracking
that she's still moving,

00:58:19.901 --> 00:58:21.692
at one point it got like over two knots,

00:58:21.692 --> 00:58:23.317
and now it's back down to one.

00:58:23.317 --> 00:58:24.941
- Yeah.

00:58:24.941 --> 00:58:26.933
- [Soraya] And then how
much daylight is there even,

00:58:26.933 --> 00:58:28.860
is that an issue that they don't have-?

00:58:28.860 --> 00:58:32.070
- [Coast Guard] It probably
is kind of reaching sunset,

00:58:32.070 --> 00:58:32.903
close to there.

00:58:35.945 --> 00:58:39.028
(notifications buzz)

00:58:48.098 --> 00:58:50.750
(phone vibrates)

00:58:50.750 --> 00:58:53.247
- [Coast Guard] Hi,
this is the Coast Guard.

00:58:53.247 --> 00:58:56.280
A C-17 flew from the west coast

00:58:56.280 --> 00:58:58.770
to help us in the search for Angela.

00:58:58.770 --> 00:59:01.248
We also have a system called AMVER

00:59:01.248 --> 00:59:03.678
where merchant vessels can help us

00:59:03.678 --> 00:59:06.555
and the aircraft that was overhead

00:59:06.555 --> 00:59:10.890
was able to vector the merchant vessel

00:59:10.890 --> 00:59:13.740
into Angela's rower location

00:59:13.740 --> 00:59:16.290
and confirmed that Angela was,

00:59:16.290 --> 00:59:19.590
you know, is deceased.

00:59:19.590 --> 00:59:24.120
- [Debra] Oh, and do we
know and do we know why?

00:59:24.120 --> 00:59:26.010
Do we have any idea?

00:59:26.010 --> 00:59:29.295
- [Coast Guard] Well, we don't
know exactly what happened,

00:59:29.295 --> 00:59:32.640
but she is tethered to the rower,

00:59:32.640 --> 00:59:34.350
and they're doing best to recover her

00:59:34.350 --> 00:59:35.183
at this time.

01:00:20.661 --> 01:00:23.411
(waves crashing)

01:00:31.440 --> 01:00:33.720
- [Reporter] Angela Madsen
could be described as someone

01:00:33.720 --> 01:00:35.643
who lived a thousand lives.

01:00:36.750 --> 01:00:38.340
- [Reporter 2] According to team USA,

01:00:38.340 --> 01:00:40.560
Madsen was a world class rower.

01:00:40.560 --> 01:00:42.930
She crossed the Atlantic Ocean twice,

01:00:42.930 --> 01:00:46.080
and was making her second
attempt at solo crossing

01:00:46.080 --> 01:00:48.450
in the Pacific Ocean when she died.

01:00:48.450 --> 01:00:50.460
- [Reporter 3] It's just
such a tremendous shock.

01:00:50.460 --> 01:00:55.460
This indomitable spirit
Angela Madsen is, is gone.

01:00:57.100 --> 01:00:58.683
She will be missed.

01:00:59.647 --> 01:01:02.397
(waves crashing)

01:02:13.847 --> 01:02:16.514
(birds singing)

01:02:20.389 --> 01:02:23.389
(dishes clattering)

01:02:46.426 --> 01:02:49.259
(microwave beeps)

01:03:21.394 --> 01:03:24.053
- For a long time I just kept
expecting her to come home.

01:03:26.070 --> 01:03:29.760
I just, I look at the door thinking

01:03:29.760 --> 01:03:31.950
she was gonna come through.

01:03:36.570 --> 01:03:39.393
I feel her like everywhere.

01:03:43.800 --> 01:03:45.573
It's like little reminders.

01:03:49.920 --> 01:03:52.500
It's really driving me crazy.

01:03:52.500 --> 01:03:55.590
My house is driving me
crazy and not having stuff.

01:03:55.590 --> 01:03:57.140
I think this is the money ball.

01:03:58.110 --> 01:04:01.080
It was green once, which
is how it got a name,

01:04:01.080 --> 01:04:04.440
but it's what she, she
threw the world record,

01:04:04.440 --> 01:04:05.820
she had the world record in shot put

01:04:05.820 --> 01:04:10.200
from 2012 till 2016.

01:04:10.200 --> 01:04:12.000
It got broken in Rio.

01:04:12.000 --> 01:04:15.510
This is her brand new wheelchair
that she never ever sat.

01:04:15.510 --> 01:04:16.710
Well, she sat in at once,

01:04:16.710 --> 01:04:18.613
but this is what I was supposed
to bring to her in Hawaii

01:04:18.613 --> 01:04:21.270
when the row was over.

01:04:21.270 --> 01:04:22.520
It was a brand new chair.

01:04:23.700 --> 01:04:27.178
This is the wall she erected
to keep my space from her space

01:04:27.178 --> 01:04:30.990
so that my laundry space did
not encroach on her space.

01:04:30.990 --> 01:04:32.520
But little does she know
she didn't come home.

01:04:32.520 --> 01:04:36.123
So shit, I filled up
her space. Hm, too bad.

01:04:43.500 --> 01:04:45.750
- [Soraya] What do you think
Angela would say about the film

01:04:45.750 --> 01:04:48.060
if she were here right now in this room?

01:04:48.060 --> 01:04:51.540
- Oh, that's the most important thing.

01:04:51.540 --> 01:04:53.100
That's what she told me on the phone

01:04:53.100 --> 01:04:54.630
last time I talked to her.

01:04:54.630 --> 01:04:57.687
Do whatever you have
to do to get this done.

01:05:02.815 --> 01:05:05.398
(gentle music)

01:05:24.452 --> 01:05:26.369
- Ship's company, rest.

01:05:46.970 --> 01:05:49.803
(music continues)

01:06:42.438 --> 01:06:43.617
- All the veterans here.

01:06:43.617 --> 01:06:45.600
I'm gonna ask one thing right now.

01:06:45.600 --> 01:06:49.380
I want you all render a salute to Angela

01:06:49.380 --> 01:06:51.120
out there in the ocean and together.

01:06:51.120 --> 01:06:53.910
So salute, present arms.

01:07:23.054 --> 01:07:25.554
(GPS beeping)

01:07:30.330 --> 01:07:34.440
- Well, if you recall, we had
a tragedy with Angela Madsen.

01:07:34.440 --> 01:07:37.710
She, she drowned out in
the middle of the Pacific

01:07:37.710 --> 01:07:40.320
rowing on her way to Hawaii.

01:07:40.320 --> 01:07:44.940
Now the, the remnants of the
boat have actually drifted

01:07:44.940 --> 01:07:46.230
to this position right here,

01:07:46.230 --> 01:07:49.170
about 850 miles east of Honolulu.

01:07:49.170 --> 01:07:51.690
However, there's a problem.

01:07:51.690 --> 01:07:54.420
There is this huge hurricane
which is coming up,

01:07:54.420 --> 01:07:58.770
and it could be a big
problem for the Row of Life.

01:07:58.770 --> 01:08:03.000
And so we will monitor this
situation after Angela Madsen

01:08:03.000 --> 01:08:06.150
unfortunately and tragically drowned.

01:08:06.150 --> 01:08:08.130
- I talked to Miles,

01:08:08.130 --> 01:08:11.910
and Miles said the
conditions that were there

01:08:11.910 --> 01:08:14.100
were such that the boat
probably got lifted

01:08:14.100 --> 01:08:16.110
like 100 feet off the ground

01:08:16.110 --> 01:08:18.510
and slammed back into the water.

01:08:18.510 --> 01:08:21.210
And that might have
happened a couple of times.

01:08:21.210 --> 01:08:25.157
And I thought, man, that
puts it in a thousand pieces.

01:08:31.583 --> 01:08:34.166
(gentle music)

01:09:30.958 --> 01:09:34.041
(notifications buzz)

01:09:37.340 --> 01:09:39.450
- So the specially
designed paddling boat used

01:09:39.450 --> 01:09:42.630
by American Paralympic
paddler, Angela Madsen,

01:09:42.630 --> 01:09:46.345
washed up in Mili Atoll
in the Marshall Islands

01:09:46.345 --> 01:09:48.120
in late October,

01:09:48.120 --> 01:09:51.915
16 months after Madsen was
located by the US Coast Guard

01:09:51.915 --> 01:09:55.890
dead in the water about
1100 miles into her voyage

01:09:55.890 --> 01:09:58.200
from California to Hawaii.

01:09:58.200 --> 01:10:00.010
Photo by Benjamin Chutaro.

01:10:02.219 --> 01:10:03.802
Okay, so let's see.

01:10:04.683 --> 01:10:08.770
Okay, so we need to find Benjamin Chutaro.

01:10:09.877 --> 01:10:12.377
(tense music)

01:10:43.440 --> 01:10:46.320
- I am not the most charming person,

01:10:46.320 --> 01:10:50.009
and I have limited social skills,

01:10:50.009 --> 01:10:51.800
and I thought I could go there,

01:10:51.800 --> 01:10:53.730
but I might really screw things up.

01:10:53.730 --> 01:10:56.760
So I was actually relieved
that the film team was going,

01:10:56.760 --> 01:11:00.150
because I figured you
guys had better skills.

01:11:00.150 --> 01:11:01.590
I figured you'd be better at, you know,

01:11:01.590 --> 01:11:03.090
finding out what was going on.

01:11:14.827 --> 01:11:17.880
- There you are, Row of Life.
- Okay. Ah, she's rested.

01:11:17.880 --> 01:11:19.530
- Yeah. Yeah.

01:11:19.530 --> 01:11:22.561
So the thing, the thing
like I was saying is that,

01:11:22.561 --> 01:11:26.220
normally when a boat is out
there for a length of time,

01:11:26.220 --> 01:11:28.650
you will start seeing a lot of growth,

01:11:28.650 --> 01:11:30.753
and there's no visible growth.

01:11:31.590 --> 01:11:34.440
Like even, like if you look
at the, the boat itself,

01:11:34.440 --> 01:11:38.052
I mean obviously things
were taken off, right?

01:11:38.052 --> 01:11:42.480
- Yeah. Okay. Yeah. They
stripped that, all the GPS-

01:11:42.480 --> 01:11:43.769
- Everything got stripped.

01:11:43.769 --> 01:11:45.657
I mean, when I got there,
this is what it was. Yeah.

01:11:45.657 --> 01:11:48.180
I was already thinking the worst.

01:11:48.180 --> 01:11:51.120
Like, oh gosh, the person
fell off or, you know.

01:11:51.120 --> 01:11:54.060
So I was already thinking,
oh, you know, crap.

01:11:54.060 --> 01:11:56.803
And then I saw that, so I Googled it.

01:11:57.919 --> 01:11:59.153
- [Soraya] It's just
sitting there right now.

01:11:59.153 --> 01:12:02.153
- [Benjamin] Yeah, it's still there.

01:12:14.853 --> 01:12:17.436
(gentle music)

01:12:59.865 --> 01:13:02.782
- I'm gonna take this back for Deb.

01:13:05.763 --> 01:13:06.596
That's it.

01:13:07.583 --> 01:13:09.515
That's all that's in here.

01:13:09.515 --> 01:13:14.359
There's her little, her monkey hanger.

01:13:14.359 --> 01:13:19.359
I remember when she put this up.

01:13:25.940 --> 01:13:29.490
this is the survival suit
that Angela would've worn

01:13:29.490 --> 01:13:30.720
if something had happened to her,

01:13:30.720 --> 01:13:32.283
if she had been lost to sea,

01:13:34.740 --> 01:13:37.847
and if her boat capsized or something.

01:13:37.847 --> 01:13:41.370
And it had, it has just
a bunch of safety stuff.

01:13:41.370 --> 01:13:42.930
It has this flotation device,

01:13:42.930 --> 01:13:46.140
it's got a whistle and a
light, and reflective tape.

01:13:46.140 --> 01:13:48.767
And what's funny is I'm laughing because

01:13:48.767 --> 01:13:50.602
Deb really wanted Angela to pack this,

01:13:50.602 --> 01:13:53.340
and she didn't want to pack it.

01:13:53.340 --> 01:13:55.840
She thought it would take
up too much extra space,

01:13:56.880 --> 01:13:59.190
but it's just funny that this
is the one item on the boat

01:13:59.190 --> 01:14:00.993
that's clearly survived.

01:14:12.064 --> 01:14:13.920
- At some point I was
thinking I should get it back,

01:14:13.920 --> 01:14:17.043
but it was like, what's,
what's really best?

01:14:19.590 --> 01:14:23.130
And I think, I think
it just belongs there.

01:14:23.130 --> 01:14:25.180
I think it, it's found it's (indistinct).

01:14:43.083 --> 01:14:44.313
It's such a trip.

01:14:47.520 --> 01:14:49.860
- Yeah. So the only other
thing that I didn't bring back

01:14:49.860 --> 01:14:52.620
was the survival suit.

01:14:52.620 --> 01:14:53.914
- Yeah.
- The Gumby suit.

01:14:53.914 --> 01:14:54.747
- That was big.
- But it was funny.

01:14:54.747 --> 01:14:56.550
I mean, that was literally
the only other thing.

01:14:56.550 --> 01:14:58.770
There were the, the stickers
were still on the boat too.

01:14:58.770 --> 01:15:00.660
No one ripped those off.

01:15:00.660 --> 01:15:04.350
- It's pretty amazing that the
flag is in this good a shape.

01:15:04.350 --> 01:15:05.430
I mean, I know it's bad,

01:15:05.430 --> 01:15:09.631
but it's, it went a long
ways for a lot of days,

01:15:09.631 --> 01:15:12.210
and she always made sure
she rolled it up all nice

01:15:12.210 --> 01:15:13.380
and everything when it was done,

01:15:13.380 --> 01:15:16.683
and kept it good so
that it was pretty good.

01:15:17.654 --> 01:15:21.483
So yeah, it's been around for a while.

01:15:22.484 --> 01:15:24.510
That is pretty exciting actually,

01:15:24.510 --> 01:15:26.410
that it got to come back.

01:15:36.513 --> 01:15:40.320
- I've had a vision of
getting to the lighthouse buoy

01:15:40.320 --> 01:15:41.643
into the finish line,

01:15:42.720 --> 01:15:44.440
and I've had a vision of

01:15:46.290 --> 01:15:49.143
the documentary film, of it being filmed,

01:15:50.010 --> 01:15:51.660
you know, and just like all emotional,

01:15:51.660 --> 01:15:53.400
I'm at the finish line,

01:15:53.400 --> 01:15:56.040
and I've actually, I get to claim victory,

01:15:56.040 --> 01:15:57.363
and it's, it's documented.

01:15:58.924 --> 01:16:01.507
(gentle music)

01:16:25.020 --> 01:16:27.870
- Well, I mean, I had people
say, why did you let her go?

01:16:29.994 --> 01:16:31.990
It wasn't really an option, right?

01:16:39.095 --> 01:16:44.095
I either just had an emotionally
dead person at my house,

01:16:44.363 --> 01:16:49.363
or someone who was following her dreams.

01:17:02.225 --> 01:17:03.225
You made it.

01:17:06.317 --> 01:17:08.984
(elating music)

01:17:36.034 --> 01:17:37.784
You're free out here.

01:17:39.283 --> 01:17:44.283
No sidewalks, no news, no Trump.

01:17:46.170 --> 01:17:50.073
It's peaceful when it's
not like riding a bull.

01:17:51.060 --> 01:17:53.493
When it's like this
it's just, it's lovely,

01:17:55.080 --> 01:17:57.483
amazing sunrises and sunsets.

01:17:58.440 --> 01:18:00.360
Big full moon will come up over the ocean,

01:18:00.360 --> 01:18:02.463
and it'll look like molten silver,

01:18:03.330 --> 01:18:04.833
just little ripples in it.

01:18:09.990 --> 01:18:12.690
Sometimes it'll look like
gold when the sun's setting.

01:18:21.030 --> 01:18:23.040
Something different every single minute,

01:18:23.040 --> 01:18:24.933
no two minutes out here are alike.

01:18:26.436 --> 01:18:28.396
From the cloud formations to the wind,

01:18:28.396 --> 01:18:29.229
and the smell of the ocean,

01:18:29.229 --> 01:18:33.180
to the green life and the
birds, it's always changing.

01:18:34.659 --> 01:18:36.930
You're never at the same
lat and long, either.

01:18:36.930 --> 01:18:37.763
Always moving,

01:18:40.740 --> 01:18:41.790
even when you stop.

01:18:59.880 --> 01:19:01.950
My attitude towards death
is it's gonna happen

01:19:01.950 --> 01:19:06.950
when I'm finished doing what
I'm put on this earth to do.

01:19:10.470 --> 01:19:13.320
And apparently I'm supposed
to be able to do it

01:19:13.320 --> 01:19:14.580
with this body.

01:19:14.580 --> 01:19:17.910
And it's supposed to be out there.

01:19:17.910 --> 01:19:20.360
The story is supposed to
be out there for people.

01:19:21.420 --> 01:19:23.170
And I'm trying to make that happen.

01:19:25.390 --> 01:19:27.973
(gentle music)

01:20:06.998 --> 01:20:10.414
♪ Shame is a river ♪

01:20:10.414 --> 01:20:13.283
♪ When I cross its waters ♪

01:20:13.283 --> 01:20:15.950
♪ I always sink ♪

01:20:23.828 --> 01:20:27.116
♪ Hope's on the other side ♪

01:20:27.116 --> 01:20:32.116
♪ But I got guilt tied
like bricks to my feet ♪

01:20:40.180 --> 01:20:44.103
♪ I was fifteen when
I had my first drink ♪

01:20:44.103 --> 01:20:48.230
♪ Numb on the sofa across from a shrink ♪

01:20:48.230 --> 01:20:53.230
♪ Keeping my mouth shut
and grinding my teeth ♪

01:20:57.081 --> 01:21:00.889
♪ I was fifteen when
I had my first drink ♪

01:21:00.889 --> 01:21:05.333
♪ Numb on the sofa across from a shrink ♪

01:21:05.333 --> 01:21:10.333
♪ Keeping my mouth shut
and grinding my teeth ♪

01:21:14.167 --> 01:21:18.014
♪ got away as far as I could ♪

01:21:18.014 --> 01:21:22.022
♪ But that didn't do me any good ♪

01:21:22.022 --> 01:21:27.022
♪ This hurricane's within me ♪

01:21:29.832 --> 01:21:32.420
♪ I'm a force of nature ♪

01:21:32.420 --> 01:21:34.496
♪ Keep your saviors ♪

01:21:34.496 --> 01:21:36.340
♪ There's no prayer ♪

01:21:36.340 --> 01:21:39.673
♪ That can reconcile me ♪

01:21:46.422 --> 01:21:50.510
♪ Paint me a picture ♪

01:21:50.510 --> 01:21:52.302
♪ What where I am ♪

01:21:52.302 --> 01:21:57.302
♪ Finally cry myself to sleep ♪

01:22:02.216 --> 01:22:05.797
♪ Show me a future ♪

01:22:05.797 --> 01:22:09.797
♪ Where I am, forgiven and free ♪

01:22:22.542 --> 01:22:24.367
♪ Oh no ♪

01:22:24.367 --> 01:22:29.367
♪ Oh no ♪

01:22:32.806 --> 01:22:36.866
♪ Oh no ♪

01:22:36.866 --> 01:22:40.196
♪ Oh no ♪

01:22:40.196 --> 01:22:45.196
♪ Oh no ♪

01:22:47.912 --> 01:22:51.216
♪ Oh no ♪

01:22:51.216 --> 01:22:55.500
♪ Oh no ♪

01:22:55.500 --> 01:23:00.302
♪ Oh no ♪

01:23:00.302 --> 01:23:04.379
♪ Oh no ♪

01:23:04.379 --> 01:23:06.689
♪ Oh no ♪

01:23:06.689 --> 01:23:09.189
(music fades)